Over It

I don't know this feeling. Caring for someone, but not being able to tell them. Being so scared of the rejection, or rather the reaction of that person. I've never been so scared to admit my feelings to someone. I want them to go away. I don't want to be in love, I don't want to care about anyone but myself and my son. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to be in any pain from a man. I'd rather be alone. 

New year!

It's a new year and a new me and I feel good. I got rid of the negative people in my life and started being more positive and pensive. I'm putting more of my energy and focus into my beautiful Noah and myself. I'm enjoying being single and loving myself and my body. I'm experiencing new things and I can actually say I'm happy. I will no longer let stress and other people get the best of me.