Over It

I don't know this feeling. Caring for someone, but not being able to tell them. Being so scared of the rejection, or rather the reaction of that person. I've never been so scared to admit my feelings to someone. I want them to go away. I don't want to be in love, I don't want to care about anyone but myself and my son. I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to be in any pain from a man. I'd rather be alone.