He really pushes my buttons. I just can't understand how he take my last and give me nothing in return. He talk to me how ever he wants, do what the fuck he wants, and act the way he wants but it cant be the same way with me. He's taken everything I had of value an sold it, he's broken me down to the very fiber of my being and made me feel as if I was like a worm. This man has me go through things I never thought I could. He's made me the happiest woman in the world than taken right back down the to the saddest. He makes me so mad sometimes my blood literally boils. I hate the way I love him when all I want is to hate him more than ever. He takes takes and takes and never gives me anything in return but his attitudes bullshit and sometimes I get a piece of the guy I fell in love with. Like right now he pushed and pushed until I gave him my car keys and he wanted my last four bucks. I'm beyond pissed an frustrated and yet I still have in. I always end up giving in and I hate myself every time I do. I feel like a piece of shit when I let him have his way and mistreat me and my stuff especially my car. He hasn't put shit into either one of my cars but he always wants to take it drive his dumb ass friends places and occasionally do the shit he's supposed to be doing. It's like nothing matters to him but his self and everybody that's in his life is just in it for the ride on tlb's roller coaster life. No matter what I'm going through or dealing with unless it effects him directly he doesn't give a fuck. But let it be him in the same position you better move hell and heaven to make something happen. He makes me question would he do for me what I do for him. I haven't seen it thus far. I want to though. I'm tired of having everything on my back and love for the person who's supposed to be in my corner helping me out so I can get all my stuff together. I want him working hard and me back to focusing on school one hundred percent. I'm tired of laying in bed worrying all the time about money.. And everything else in between. I worry all day and night about how I'm going to get here n there find work be able to pay for school eat ugh I'm jut a giant fuckin stress tube ready to explode. An here he is not worried about anything but tlb I don't know how much more I can take.