He is so infuriating!! All he does is take and take and then get mad when you get tired of giving. I'm sick of being fucked over and shitted on and talked to like a fucking a dog. I wish I could honestly hate him so I didn't have to be around for this shit. I feel like I never get the side of him I want to see. I feel like I get the side that just wants to treat me like I'm an object he can do whatever he wants to. It hurts to think that this person I love this person who's child I'm having doesn't really love me. How can he of he acts the way he does. I he can do the things he does. I'm so tired emotional my brain feels like its going numb. I dream of dreams within a dream to feel a sense of peace and relief. I feel like I should happy at this time in my life but I feel so empty it hurts. I hope the baby doesn't feel the same emotions as me. I don't want him or her to feel sad and upset. I'm trying to not cry right now by staying angry at what he just said to me but the sadness just keeps coming. Hopefully I can just fall asleep soon so my brain can stop working for awhile. It's so hard to explain how tiring it is everyday to battle with him if that's w even the right way to word what we go threw everyday.