I feel very awkward about my body now. My manager called me cow yesterday for ordering breakfast food after work. It made me feel bad. Like he's always making little comments and rude remarks about me and my weight. He always makes it a point to say how gorgeous his sister was when she was pregnant and how small she stayed and how she got her figure right back. Ugh it really makes me feel depressed that I have 5 months and some weeks left of being pregnant. My boyfriends no help either. He doesn't make me feel beautiful or even the slightest bit pretty. I feel like shit. Some days I feel so just off I just lay in bed and cry. I keep wondering when I'm going to feel that happiness that I see other expecting mothers feeling. Or least when I'll feel like I'm not completely alone. It hurts me every night to feel and be so alone but have to smile and pretend like everything's okay during the day.