Sometimes I wish my dad never died and I never left nv. I miss that time when I had a ton of friends I had a dad a home a life...life was different slower...I never felt the things I've felt since I've been here...everything's always fucked up...the only thing I wanted when I got here was to feel the love I felt when I was in nv that helped me get threw everything.. I thought I found that in him...but...idk...I don't understand how the person who makes me feel like Im everything can also make me feel like I'm nothing ..it hurts so bad...I want that feeling again love...happiness...something