Troubled

My boyfriend is such an idiot. He spent the whole day doing exactly what I didn't want him to do, sleep and eat. I told him I finally wanted one day of him to myself and yet, I couldn't even get that. It's like he doesn't even care hat we're falling apart. I just want to spend time together and he acts as if that's asking for too much. The only time we talk is when he's picking me up or dropping me off somewhere. We never just sit and talk or be physical with each other. It hurts when you want that person so bad and yet they keep avoiding you at all costs. I want him to talk to me and be with me but he won't. I miss us. I miss him. I love him so much..but idk what to do about this. I keep warning him that I won't he around forever but yet he still dies the same things as before. I feel do lost and alone.. I keep drinking hoping it will numb my pain but all it does is put me to sleep only to awake to the same problem. Does he really love me or am I fooling myself into a beautiful lie?? God I wish guys were less complex. I feel so empty idk what to do. I want him back...but I'm sick of being hurt and alone. Why can't he put in the same effort that I am??? Why can't he just be honest with me?? Does he really love me?? Does he care??? Love hurts soo much..what do I do???