Moving forward, yet backwards

I've been working on bettering myself lately. I finally got my case closed for my little incident. Which is a major load off my back. I've paid off a large chunk of my debt this year, which is also very awesome. But I feel like in everything I'm trying to do its all falling apart. My relationship or what was my relationship failed misrrably. My childcare situation is fucked up, job still sucks, schools getting better but feels like it's taking so long for me to make progress. I want to get a solid foundation going for Noah and I'm just fucking up more and more. I want to make some real progress and I don't know where to start. I'm making small steps, but they seem to small to make a big difference. Maybe I'm trying to move too fast, or I'm not seeing what I'm doing is making a change, but I'm just not seeing it yet. I've burnt a lot of bridges trying to figure myself and my life out. I'm stuck with me, myself, and I and google for all my advice and guidance. Which is my fault. I never listened to people over the last few years. I could've avoided some bumps in the road if I would've. But I also wouldn't have learned why those were the wrong choices and descions. I'm lost. I want to know, no I need to know what's the right direction. I don't want to be poor and in established my whole life. I want to be the kind of mom my son can stand back and say that I was strong and I provided anything and everything for him.