He makes me feel so low that I do t even feel like a woman. I don't even feel human I feel like an object that's faded and tattered. I feel like I just want to disappear. I want to fade away and never be heard from again. I dream of waking up in dreams dreaming more and more of more dreams thoughtless thoughts free from all emotion. I dream about this. I want to let go and finally breathe again. I want to feel loved and safe. I'm so low I can't imagine what up feels like. Up is somewhere in the clouds where somebody loves you somebody cares up is where there's no pain none at all. I dream I'll find that place. I dream that I can make my own dream come true. I dream about this.